‘I Was Broken, A Walking Disaster & A Ticking Time Bomb’ - Tonto Dikeh

Controversial singer and Nollywood actress, Tonto Dikeh had a reflective moment on Instagram this morning. She took a moment to share her journey, spiritually and physically, with her followers. Below is what she wrote:...

"Woke up reflecting on who i am and how far i have grown spiritually, physically as a woman*
I had so much anger,  So much venom, so much Hate to give*
I didnt understand why neither did i give A hoot*
I thought life Was all i Saw, Most of my anger Came from my Childhood (even though i did have a great childhood),Some came from Been Sick, Another came from been motherless,etc* 

Darlings i was broken, i was a walking disaster, A ticking time Bomb*
I was on a suicide part on a regular, sigh#
Bottom line I Saved me, i got to realise that no1 cares about your Pain or life, people already have too much on their plate Or are more Angry about life than you are, I came to understand that without me the world would still go on with nothing missed and might even be a better place, you might be missed for a day, week, years but i bet you, u gonna be so forgotten when its time*i came to understand the change i needed was inside of me, We really don’t maximise our God given Authority AS God’s creations #PRAYER#* 

I came to realise that Anger is a more deadly messed up illness than CANCER, my anger was the shield between me and happiness, Love, Life, etc*I came to realise that my future depends on me letting go of all the hurt/Anger/Negativity and fully committed to God and living a good life** 

I did realise a couple of things about myself, love, God/Allah, Food. We are barely existing n not living without God*Good food is fuel for your mind, soul n body**
Release yourself today from Your Burden/Anger/Pain and truly discover a life of constant joy in his grace..
I didn’t turn born again or nothing i just realised that I AM SPECIAL."

Photo Credit: Instagram.com/tontolet